Best Christmas Gift

The best gift ever is being able to see my sweet baby!

Ben and his family were able to travel over the mountains to see me this weekend and it was the best day ever! First of all, he's not chubby anymore but he makes up for it by being so vocal with his raspy little voice. And oh my goodness does he look like Andrew (who only said a couple of words to me during our visit with Ben, but hey at least he woke up for it.)

After eating dinner, I just got to sit there and watch his dad make him giggle for an entire hour. It was incredible. Then we went to Andrew's on Saturday morning and ate breakfast and played with Ben's new toys.

Something interesting happened when we were saying our goodbyes at Andrew's. His dad was shaking Derek's hand, saying thank you for coming. And then he got super emotional and started crying. And his kids were all 'Dad you're over reacting.' and I just patted his shoulder, because he has a right to be sad. Here is this freaking perfect child I created and Andrew swept under the rug; the consequence of that is them seldom seeing their perfect grandchild, their only grandchild. So much of me feels that maybe if they taught their son to take responsibility for his actions, we could all see Ben all the time because I COULD STILL HAVE MY BABY. But instead, they encouraged him to be selfish, and forced me to give up Ben. They're finally starting to feel his loss. Welcome to hell.

I've always had this dream to go to my grocery store with my baby. Maybe it's because I'm there constantly and I see all the other moms who get to go shopping with their baby, and I definitely envy them. Ann made my dreams come true! I got to go into my store and hold my baby for 20 minutes while I introduced him to some of my coworkers. And it was as magical as I always envisioned it to be. He even stuck to my side because I was less of a stranger than everyone else. Meanwhile, Zach got to meet Ann and Derek.

But basically, this day was perfect. I got to be with Ben, Zach, my work, and I even had a photoshoot! I want to relive it over and over again.

Also, I got another promotion :)

They're basically twins. It's perfect.

Ben reading half english-half spanish books with Derek.

My baby at my grocery store!!!